Sometimes, you’ve just gotta stop trying, because trying brings you more heartache than waiting. You put your all into it, and let me guess, you get nothing in return? You send text after text, you call, you leave voicemails, and still nothing. You pour your heart out, to turn around and get no reply. He/she continues to tell you how much they love and miss you, but doesn’t act on it. You wanna know why? It’s because they know you’ll be there waiting when it’s convienent for them. When their relationship doesn’t work out, they know you’ll be there waiting. You’re their second option, and you’re to good to be that second option. Don’t give them that satisfaction. Stop trying, start acting like you don’t care. They’ll realize what they had was better than anything they’re ever gonna get, some will realize just in time, and some will be too late
The ONLY thing keeping me happy right now. <3
This is Josh. I’ve known this kid my practically my whole life. Ever since I was 6 years old. We had the cutest elementary school crush on each other. I’m now 18 and he is 17. For about 10 year or so, me and him lost all contact with each other. Nothing at all for over 10 years. I started talking to his bestfriend Ryan, I had no clue they were friends, until Ryan asked if it was okay if he brought a friend to hangout with me and him one day. I said sure and asked who, and the response I got shocked me. “Josh McCraw” he said. I was in shock because it had been so long since I had heard that name, or even seen him. I thought I was gonna hate seeing him because he had just left without saying anything to me before. Well, him and Ryan came over to the house about a month ago and it all started all over again. Josh and I are acting like he never left, we’re acting like we’ve talked all the time over the years, even though we haven’t. We talk about how much we missed each other and everything. He was my bestfriend. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m so glad we’re back in contact with each other, but everything just seems to good to be true. My very first crush ever, coming back into my life at the age of 18? Me having a crush on him again? Maybe its just me over thinking things, but he came back into my life for a reason. The way we act around each other is amazing, we act like bestfriends, but we flirt so much. <3 In June, he gets deployed. Thinking about this tears me up because I can’t bear the thought of losing him for a 2nd time. I’ve never been like this over one of my friends deploying. I feel like I missed out on a great opportunity before, I could have been with him my whole life. I feel like this could be a true love thing, but I’m to scared to act on it. I’ve told him that I liked him, I just haven’t told him how strongly I felt about him. This kid honestly completes me. I really don’t know what I would do without him, I just wish he would understand that I do wanna be with him, and only him. He is my rock and so much more.
I look like crap, but I don’t care. I’m so glad I have my best friend back in my life. The month and 2 weeks I went without him were the hardest. It sucked. Never take any of your friends for granted, never take someone that sticks by your side through everything for granted, never assume shit. If you have stuff on your mind talk to them about it. Don’t make the mistake I did and keep everything bottled up and lose the one person you care about most. I’m so glad I have you back in my life, you’re the best friend a girl could ever ask for. I love you Kenneth James Beam
Never take one second for granted. Never be too scared to take chances, never be too afraid to say whats on your mind, never be afraid to try. You’re never gonna know unless you try. Lifes all about chances. So take them and don’t look back (:
In 5 days, this guy will have been my bestfriend for a year. He is the only guy who has never turned his back on me, the only guy who has ALWAYS been there for me, the only one who has always stuck around and never used me or played with my emotions. The only one who has never hurt me. I made the mistake of hurting him yesterday. Kenneth James Beam, you mean the world to me and so much more, I am so sorry for what I said. I have said the word sorry so many times, but then again I guess there is only so much I can say or do. I finally got my chance with you, and I’m fucking it up. I don’t care if we don’t work out, I just want our friendship to stay the same. You are the greatest and most caring guy I know. Please forgive me. I love you.
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Preston and I <3
No matter how far apart me and him may be, no matter how much I get to talk to him. I will always stay true. I only get to see and talk to him one day a week. && Thats enough for me. I have only one month left, till he’s mine for good. No more goodbyes. <3